Posted by
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6/02/2013 07:56:00 PM
Jun 2, 2013
In the fall of 2011 I was told I had Leukemia (APL). I spent a month in the hospital. I bled out when they tried to put in a pic line in my neck and spent 4 days in CCU. When my platelets were extremely low my eyes hemorrhage and it left me mostly blind for about 4 months until the clots dissolved. Once I left the hospital I spent a year and a half on 3 different forms of chemo, never spending more than a week or two between doses.
If I wasn't in the outpatient clinic with an IV in my arm I was at home. My immune system has been so weak that I have had to keep myself away from people as much a possible so I didn't get sick. Needless to say, this left me with a lot of time online.
During my treatment I found out 2 people I knew from my college years passed away from cancer, one this past December. This really hurt me a lot. I didn't understand why I was alive and these other people who have impacted a lot more lives than I have were taken. I told myself I can't fuck up and not do anything with my life. I can't just sit here, go to work, come home and sit in front of the tv like 90% of the rest of America. I had to make my life worth saving.
During this time I have found Anonymous. I have always been active in charity work and volunteering and there were certain Ops that really hit home. With the structure of how Anon runs it was easy for me to be helpful relaying information and use the resources I have from my computer.
Some Ops that have really helped me over the past few months has been AnonFM, OpELE, and OpAntiBully. I have gained a lot of really good friends and have been helped through a lot of really hard times. In the real world my husband and parents have been the only ones who have seen me really sick and up for days on end. The people in these groups have also seen me this way and have helped me through some really shitty days and nights. Thank you so much for all you have done for me. I love you all. You are family to me.
Today I am in remission, last week was my last week of chemo and today is National Cancer Survivors Day. I couldn't have made it without the love and support of those around me.
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5/21/2013 11:01:00 PM
May 21, 2013
Here is a list of websites and Facebook pages to help get supplies to the tornado struck areas of Oklahoma and to help families connected to their lost pets. If you would like your information added to this list please tweet it to @HedgeRaven.
The Cleveland County Fairgrounds will be housing lost pets from the disaster at Moore. If you are wanting to help, we are accepting pet food donations and other pet supplies. If you are looking for lost pets, they are on their way. If you have any questions please contact.
Cleveland County Fairgrounds 615 E. Robinson Norman, OK 73071 (405)360-4721
OKCLostPets - Sometimes the webpage crashes because of so many people on it.
Ways To Donate Money To Help Feed
Animal Medical Center of Midwest City - They are taking injured pets from the tornado. Any donations to cover the medications would be extremely helpful.
New Leash On Life - Specify that the donation is for tornado response and it will go to ARC.
Oklahoma State University's Center for Veterinary Health Sciences is offering care for animals injured during the storm. Owners and referring veterinarians can call 405/744-7000 to arrange for care. Meanwhile, contributions to defray the cost of this care can be made online at www.cvhs.okstate.edu/oarf or by calling 405/385-5607.
Greetings Citizens of Weirton West Virginia. We are Anonymous. It has recently come to our attention the unspeakable crimes committed by Tyler Graham. The 19 yr old responsible for the rape of an 2 yr old child. As members of the the collective we find this intolerable and unacceptable. This has angered the hive. It is of utmost importance that this crime committed by Tyler Graham is prosecuted to the full extent of the law.
We have made a decision, that on March 2nd, 2013 we will be stationing a rally to recognize and support the 2 year old Jane Doe.
We will no longer stand for such brutal acts against innocent people.
Let us take the time to elucidate the goals we have regarding this rally.
First of all, we are not arriving there to cause a disturbance, we are simply there to be a voice for the little jane doe that cannot speak for herself.
Secondly, we are there to also support all children who are abused in some way. whether it be physically, emotionally, through the interwebs, or they are mentally battered.
Last but certainly not least, we are there to support and be a voice for all Jane Doe's and John Doe's.
If we need to come to the court house every weekend to hold a rally, then we will. we want to make it clear, that we are not happy with what has been going on in this general area.
Initiate #OpWeirton
We are Anonymous.
We are Legion.
For everyone that falls,
Ten more shall take his place.
We do not Forgive.
We do not Forget.
And now quite simply you have our attention. News Links WTRF - 2.20.2013 - Weirton man arrested for sexually abusing a minor The Daily Times - 2.21.2013 - Weirton man charged with abuse of two year old girl Herald Star - 2.21.2013 - Man charged with child molestation
WTRF - 2.22.2013 - Weirton Man Accused of Sexual Abuse of Two-Year-Old Posts Bail WTOV - 2.22.2013 - Weirton man accused of sexually abusing toddler free on bond
Posted by
Raven
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2/14/2013 01:13:00 AM
Feb 14, 2013
For many years I have put in computer time with SETI@Home and now Folding@Home. I have decided to create a Folding team of AnonFM friends and anyone else who wishes to help out. I am hoping to help bring this great project to the forefront of peoples minds and let them know there is ways they can help others without taking any time or money away from them. If you are on the internet then you have a computer unless you are using a smart phone or tablet. How about helping people out in your computers down time? I have created a team on Folding@Home for AnonFM and other Anon called OpAPL. I have named it this because on Oct 17, 2011 I was diagnosed with Acute Promyelocytic Leukemia. This form of Leukemia is caused from the proteins in my body not behaving correctly and turning my blood into cancer cell instead of white and red blood cells and platelets. This is one of the things Folding@Home is researching.
What is Folding?
In your body, proteins are like worker ants. When something needs done the proteins will group together or "fold." Sometimes the proteins do not fold correctly and can cause many types of diseases including Alzheimer's, Mad Cow (BSE), CJD, ALS, Huntington's, Parkinson's disease, and many Cancers and cancer-related syndromes.
What is Folding@Home?
Some of you may know what SETI@Home is. Folding@Home is the same idea. When you download a program from their website it will analyze information sent to you in "packets." When your computer is finished with a packet it will send the information back to the website and automatically get another packet. When using the Folding@Home program, the students and scientists at Stanford University will go over the packets to learn more about the process of folding. Hopefully they will learn ways to prevent misfolds or have a better understanding of the diseases misfolding can cause.
How do I help?
Go to their download page and get the program. Once it is downloaded and running you can right click the red cog on your toolbar and go to Configure. Once there you can enter a screen name you want to use and a team number. This OpAPL team number is 160138. Also in the configure you can set it to use so much memory. Even running max you don't notice a difference when surfing the net or playing music/videos. So long as your computer is on and the program is running it will automatically process the data and send and receive new packets. My user name is Autumnn because that is my gamer name and I have been running this program for over 2 years. As of this posting I have ran over 230 packets. The only maintenance I have done with this program is making sure it starts up when I restart my computer. I never notice it running and it uses very little RAM
I want to thank you so much for reading this. With my type of cancer there was no survival rate 30 years ago. Even 10 years ago there was only a 30% chance. Today with all the new research I have a 75-90% chance of staying in remission. I'm not asking for you to do any hard labor or to donate any money. Im just asking for a little bit of your computer CPU.
Posted by
Raven
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2/13/2013 11:45:00 PM
Feb 13, 2013
Knife Party has blessed AnonFM with their presence again tonight. It was an awesome concert! The last time they were there we had 1343 people in the room. Tonight we had a whopping 1525! We broke another TurnTable record! It wouldnt have been possible without the hard work of the AnonFM room owner Jackal, head mod Mr Seans, TT super users and gate keepers and the mods of AnonFM.
Be sure to check out the AnonFM Event Calendar to keep up to date on future concerts. Normally they are posted there in advanced but sometimes we have artists pop in unexpected so be sure to follow the twitter account too.
UPDATE: Not only was Knife Party there but YTCracker showed up to hang out for a while. He stayed for a while after the show and this happened. I am the blue cat with the star. YT Cracker is the blue bear. /swoon.
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2/11/2013 11:01:00 PM
Feb 11, 2013
On Jan 15, 2013 AnonFM had 2 moments of silence to remember Aaron Swartz. Twitter announced on Feb 11, 2013 would be Aaron Swartz Day. In AnonFM there was another tribute to him. At 10.30 PM EST there was a moment of silence and an array of songs played for him. It was a heartfelt tribute for a man who has touched so many lives. Thank you AnonFM for once again being there for the Anonymous community.
Posted by
Raven
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2/02/2013 02:13:00 PM
Feb 2, 2013
Before I get into my story I would like to say thank you fellow Anons for standing up for Jane Doe and all the other rape survivors out there. Watching the live streams I have been bawling seeing all these strong women standing up in front of all these people pouring their hearts out and telling their stories. Not only are you helping one girl in one little town in Ohio, you are helping many women across the country/world. I was drawn into Anon with OpWestboro but when I saw OpRollRedRoll tweets back around Christmas I knew this was my calling. I knew this is where I needed to be. This is how I was going to be able to help people but in the past I felt so helpless in being able to actually doing something about it. My Anon brothers and sisters never stop to amaze me. You guys are awesome and I love you guys. When little girls grow up they are told they are princesses. They are told they can be anything they want to be. They are told they are beautiful. They are told once they are a teenage they will find a cute boy who will give her a flower and ask her to the dance and love will abound. Girls are not told sometimes their innocence are stolen from them. For junior high I was sent to a Christian school. My parents figured it was the safest place to send me. There were kids there that have been kicked out of other schools in my large town. Not only were there Christian students but also the unwanted kids that the public schools refused to take. One of those outcasts was a black kid who claimed to be in a gang. I was from a country school so had no clue if he really was or not. He would hide in the classroom in the dark before school started. When I would go to put my backpack away he would be sitting in there to scare the girls. He would tell us he would rape us and kill us and if we told anyone he would have his gang kill our families. I have never experienced anything like that before. I would just run out of the room. We would tell our teacher about it and she would go in with us and he would just say he was finishing his homework and she would tell us to stop trying to get people in trouble. For some reason she forced us to put our backpacks away in the morning before class and we had to go back to the gym. Even if we turned on the lights he would threaten us. Even if we went in packs he would threaten us. One morning I went in there and he said he was going to rape me. I finally had the guts to tell him to shut up. He said "Oh I'll make you shut up." He then chased me out of the room and into the where the sunday services were held. Right in front of the pulpit I tripped and he jumped on top of me. He started masturbating on my back. I screamed as loud as I could until he pulled my hair back and stuffed his shirt sleeve in my mouth. Some of the guys in my class heard me and ran through the door. All I can remember is seeing the pastors son looking at him and yelling "What the fuck are you doing!?" I got up and ran to the wall. I could hear him trying to make excuses and the guys beating the shit out of him. The guys tried to ask me questions but I couldn't form words. I told the pastors wife what happened because she heard through her son. She never did anything about it because all the kids there were "troubled youth" and she was trying to help all the families no matter how fucked up they were. I never went to the cops or to my parents about it. I felt so betrayed by the pastors wife. If a woman of God wasn't going to protect me then why would anyone else? Around that time Amy Grant had an album out and the song Ask Me was on it. I would listen to it and I felt like it fit with my life. Not with the way she wrote the song, that God was always there for her, but that I had this happen to me in a church in front of a pulpit and where the fuck was God to protect me and why didn't a woman of God stand up for me. It was then I started my path towards Paganism and Atheism.
For a long time I feared black men, especially any that acted "gangster." I was well into college before I felt comfortable being around black men. Even now, 20 years later, I still keep my guard up around black men. I hate labels but it is something I cannot control. I have been keeping track of this guy and his 2 brothers through the years. One brother is now a convicted child molester. The other brother was shot by police a little over a year ago. I started crying when I saw that in the paper because I was so happy to see he died. It was then my husband told my mom what happened to me. She was hurt because she told him she put me in there thinking it was a safe place for me. The pastors wife I have found recently on Facebook. On the one year anniversary of his death she said it was a big loss with his death and he was a great person. Yeah great people are shot by the cops. This past December the guy that hurt me was arrested for battery. That was a nice Christmas present seeing his name in the paper. A lot of rapes and molestation are not reported. There are a lot of reasons for it. For me it was because I was 12 years old, was in a Christian school, the teachers didn't help, and I was too scared to tell my parents. If you are a guy, think first before you say a rape joke or comment. Many many women have had something done to them and they have kept quiet about it. If you are a parent please raise your kids to know it is ok to say something if anything happens to them and that rape or touching someone without consent is wrong. Girls your body is yours and yours alone. Don't listen to threats because if a guy has to resort to threats then he isn't strong enough to back those threats. Scream and yell until help comes. Even though you feel dirty and sick go straight to the hospital so as much DNA can be collected as possible. Most of all, know you are not alone. You didn't do anything wrong. You are not worthless. Don't let some bastard ruin your life.
Posted by
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1/16/2013 09:21:00 AM
Jan 16, 2013
On 1.15.13 the TurnTable room #AnonFM shut down music twice in memory of Aaron Swartz. The first was at 12.00PM EST to coincide with a 5 minute Twitter silence. The second was at midnight CST and included a special message from #AnonFM mod Mr_Seans.
Anonymous have come together for #OpAngel to both protect the family and friends from WBC during the funeral and burial and to find out why things happened the way they did.
The world lost a bright star. Aaron has forever touched our hearts and his essence will live forever through his creations.
Posted by
Raven
at
12/20/2012 08:19:00 PM
Dec 20, 2012
Back in 1983 I was about 4 years old. My brother had started
working in a computer repair shop. He was allowed to borrow a
computer so be brought it home. He was showing it to me and he
said it was a special computer. He told me it had a brain and it
could talk to me. I would ask it questions and it would answer me
back. I was so amazed. I sat there for a long time talking to
this computer. It would be many years later before I would
understand he was using a text to voice program.
As I grew up I never lost my love of computers. I watched
Wargames and longed to be as smart "David". When other kids asked
if I wanted to play a game with them in my mind I would
robotically say "Shall we play a game?" I had blank
slugs that I would use in pay phones and vending machines. I
would piss off the arcade by me because they would try to catch
me using them in their machines but I would always pull out a
pocket full of quarters. They never did realize I was putting the
slugs in the waist band of my pants.
Once I was 14 (1994)I went to a Computer and HAM Radio Fest. I
was able to get my first computer. It was a beat up thing. I dont
remember the specs but I do remember it had a Super VGA monitor.
It wasn't just VGA it was a Super VGA. I thought that was so
cool. I inspected that thing inside and out. I did trial and
error with DOS until I knew it fairly well. At least enought to
boggle the kids at school when I made the computers in the lab do
weird things.
When I was 16 (1996) I bought my first on my own. It was 700 Meg
hard drive. I managed to get the New York Boot virus within the
first week. I thought I killed my computer. I nerd raged for a
few days but managed to get rid of it. I had a few other mishaps
but always figured out what I did wrong and how to fix it.
Around this time something happened that changed my life. A movie
came out that symbolized everything that I wanted to me. Hackers
showed hackers as people who fought against those who wronged the
masses. It was a small group of kids my age who cried out for
help and people from around the world heard their cries and came
running. The meek rumbled mountains. I loved that symbolism. I
loved seeing the average computer geek making a difference.
Then I grew up. I became a Mom of two girls. I then had a son who
I lost because of SIDS. I fell into depression but always looked
towards my girls to keep me moving forward. I learned how to
build my own computers. I got into MMORPGs and blogging. I never
gave up the love for computers but I turned away from the hacking
side of things.
When I heard about Sandy Hook I started bawling. Knowing what it
feels like to lose a child I know what it feels like for these
parents. The big difference is I lost my son when he was 6 months
old. These parents have all the memories of their children
learning to walk, of chattering, of getting on a school bus. They
have so many more memories and emotions pounding at them than I
did. Losing my son almost killed me. If I were to lose one or
both of my girls it would definately kill me. The words heart
ache and heart break are not just saying. It feels like someone
is physically digging a knife into your chest.
I have had a long hatred for Westboro Baptist "Church." When I
heard they were going to picket the funerals it fueled a fire
inside of me. Nothing would give me more pleasure than to see
their institution crumble brick by brick. They are doing nothing but using religion to make money and using these pickets to use the media to gain more fame.
I have been following Anonymous for a few months because I was
thankful they were against online bullying. I was ecstatic to find
out they set Westboro in their cross-hairs. I haven't used twitter
much but I went on there to watch what was going on. Night after
night I have been watching the tweets and hash tags. I realized,
this is Hackers. I have been trailing along behind them like a puppy dog just drooling at what they have accomplished. Cheering at each time they DoS WBCs website or each time CosmoTheGod takes over one oftheir Twitters. I keep thinking about how much trouble I would have gotten into if there was Wifi and smart phones around when I was younger. I'll tell you younguns what, cartin' your whole desktop around for LAN parties sucked.
This is the moment I have been waiting for.
So many times watching the tweets I have been wanting to stand up
and scream HACK THE PLANET!!!! but I knew my girls would turn
around and wonder what Mom was being weird about. Instead I sit
here. I have laughed, gritted my teeth, and bawled my eyes out. I
have begged for the safety of the people forming walls. I have
begged for WBC to get what's coming to them. I have wished I
could do more to help. I have made up pictures and tried to
spread information on Facebook. I have tried to get people worked
up to try to get them to sign the petitions against WBC. I just
wish I could do more. I wish I could be in CT. I wish I knew
coding better. I wish I would have never left it behind.
This year it didn't seem like Christmas. It has been really warm
outside. It didn't seem like it was going to snow. Everyone
seemed depressed and stressed out from the election and the state
of our country. With the shooting it seemed like it was a deeper descent into Hell. What I have learned is through the darkness is
light. Though WBC are the faces of evil, the brightest most
angelic people have come forward. Thank you Anonymous for
#Operation Westboro Baptist. You have helped show that there
is still good in this world.
I hope that all of you have a very Blessed Yule, Merry Christmas, and Happy New Year. I hope the next year will be very eventful for you and you will be able to get much accomplished. Not everyone agrees on everything but I do agree on many of the issues Anonymous attends to. You have a Mom here ready to bake you cookies. ^_^
I have been online since 1995. I have hopped around from place to place but have always been Raven. I am a mother of 2. This page encompasses all the things I enjoy which can range from art, music, movies, gardening, folk lore, nature, computers, and anything else that catches my eye.
I am currently the owner of The Wandering Path and Mod of #AnonFM. I used to be the officer of a couple WoW and EQ guilds before retiring from them and the Mod of some chat rooms before their demise. I can be found on a couple different site, always as Hedge Raven.
One thing about me that tends to confuse people is the fact that I am Atheist yet still hold some Pagan beliefs. I do not believe in deities yet adore nature. There are many things that can not be tested by science yet but once science can prove certain things as false I will change my outlook on things. You have to admit you can feel the energy of a thunder storm rolling in.
